Blame it on my A.D.D Baby

Awolnation. That was one of those moments from the summer that still reels in my mind. The base dropping. The crowd cheering. The hot sticky heat. 

I've been missing summer a lot lately. This isn't normal for me. Summer has never been my favourite time of year. But with the stress of finals I've been missing it. 

Finals finished today. Paid Spring tuition. Got a new phone that almost works. Silly network. 

Getting rather frustrated with the state of affairs. I had different image of where I would be right now. 

I adore you very much. Do you know that? And we can do this. We can do anything really. 

I've been missing a lot of things. I miss Ivo a lot. Christmas is going to be hard I feel. But I do love my family and all the support I can draw from them. Van Dusen Gardens put on a lovely honour a life ceremony. We all wrote down messages on these paper hearts which are actually seeds. I like that. I really do. 

The Christmas Market was lovely. The boy and I enjoyed wine and pretzels. I saw the Killers with Leslie. I enjoyed the nostalgia. I hadn't see the band since I was 14. That was my first concert by myself. My how things have evolved since then. 

Looking forward to starting over in 2013. Somewhat at least. One Beaver meeting left before 2012 is out.

12/12/12 today. Repetitive dates are neat. New job goes well. No walking dead till February. 

Alexisonfire next week. I cannot wait. 

The world is ending...is that still happening?
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Life happened

I quit a job then got a new one a week later. Much easier then compared to the summer when I couldn't even get a Mcjob. 

I am now on the Youth Spokes person team for Scouts Canada. Keep an eye out for me in the media in the new year. 

I went to Hipster Moot. Spray paint art was made. It was lovely. Just like you of course. 
Things are getting rough in Scouting. I will do my best to rise above. 

RoVent. Did I mention I'm helping at it? I want to be helpful I've suggested a theme and we are going with it. Here's to new experiences in 2013

I've hurt my knee. I don't know what I did. But it hurts when I walk. I'm going to the Doctor for this and multiple reasons. I guess that means calling them. I hate doing that. 

I went to Ottawa for YSP training. I met Craig Kielburger. he's handsome and very nice. Learned lots about branding, advertising, international scouting. I watched the AGM. I shall miss you Steve Kent. You did a lot of great things but I'm sure our paths will cross again. I got to meet some people face to face. I met my moot Contingent leader. I learned more about CJ. 
Next summer is going to be quite amazing that's for sure. 

Sunday was training training and more training. The flight home was rough but boyfriend graciously assisted in picking me up and dropping me off at the airport over the weekend. 

Classes have wrapped up. I saw Dan Mangan last month with Tristan. Probably the best performance I've seen so far. I missed the PPP this year but it was probably for the better. 

Finals finish on the 12th then it's retail hell for awhile. I survived Black Friday so that's a start. I enjoy money and the environment I'm in so it'll all be worth it. 

Looking at half marathon training, DOE, and lots of other plans for 2013.  

Time to go read some more. And eat some ginger snaps
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"You're new. Don't expect so much of yourself"

Work goes well. School goes well. I conquered a philosophy paper

I completed a 10k a week ago. It took the whole day to really sink in. It's nice to be reminded then when I set my mind to it. I can achieve. 

So here's to continuing on with that. Because I'd like this to be a hobby. Not just an excersise routine.

Applying for a Scouting Position cross your fingers. 

Apple Day was on saturday. It was a wet success. 

Went to a Cat Party. Twas nice to see the Rovers. I miss seeing them as much as I use to. I showed off my scars. They were all rather impressed. 

I wonder how I'll feel about them a year from now. 

I'm genuinely worried about the state of certain things. And more or less how things will play out. I am curious as to what the universe has planned.

This isn't how I pictured 3rd year. But things I know could be so much worse.

October means halloween...this means finding a costume.

I have UBC speaking gig. I plan to see my cousin this week, I may try and get over my fear and donate blood.

I just don't like IVs is all
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Jack of All Trades , Master of None

City & Colour is a go to these days. Dallas Green's voice has quite a soothing quality. 

Rather irritated. But I won't let this get to me. This is not the end. Things will work out. 

6 months? When was the last time that happened? Relationships aren't foreign but they seemed to be all of last year...

Running has become a great stress release. Here's hoping that stays. 10 k is 9 days away. I see myself being a runner now. If you asked me that 2 months ago.. I would have called you crazy. But I have to try. I want this running thing to be a hobby. Not just an excersise routine

I miss my ladies. Alberta is full of work I hear but it's still rather far. 

I must write more. Especially here. It's not quite as advertised but not super private. I can vent more. I can't let the little things get to me. As much as they do.

September is almost over. Next thing you know everyone will be panicing about the end of the world...that's still happening right?

I miss Ivo a lot lately. Thanksgiving will be very hard. First with boy. First without Ivo. 

In fact I miss a lot of things. There's things I don't miss. Going to Central gave lots of nostalgia. I miss chats with Miss Taylor, I don't miss the way I was in Grade 12. I've come far in a lot of ways . Less in others. 

"I guess I take after my mother"

With the Seasons

Sunday was my last shift on the mountain. 2 years. Countless trips up and down, so many memories. Very bittersweet. I shall miss the views and my coworkers. But I am enjoying my new job

My choral dreams are on hold. The running goes well. I'm thinking more races. And going more often school and work permitting. 

Edward Sharpe was rather lovely. Minus the drunkard who wandered around stage running the encore. 

I don't feel like I'm in 3rd year yet. I don't even feel like it's halfway through September. 
Mardigras is next week. Here's hoping I can go. 

Resisting the urge to spend money on concerts. I have jamborees to save for. 

I'm very worried for next summer. But as well terribly excited. 

I've started pondering Halloween. I feel like I should dress up but it just isn't my thing. I'm perfectly content to just hang at home. 

I haven't been sleeping as well as I normally do. I have too much running through my mind. Mostly on my future and achieving certain goals. 

I'm helping at RoVent now. Should be fun I hope
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The week of firsts

First week back.
It's 3rd year now. Scary. But wonderful

All elective courses. So I'm lonely in my classes. But not really. I make friends wherever I go.

First choir rehersal. It was full of pie. I'm looking forward to singing again. It still brings me such joy. 

First day of my new job. I've joined the world of retail. It's a 15 minute commute. I am looking forward to mastering my job. (eventually)

Ran 5k. Half way through training. Tonight run again. Tomorrow run again. Just go often. It's all you can do.

Rover Moot page has been launched. 

I've signed up to write for the school paper, I still have Beavers to organize.

It's going to be an interesting remainder of the year. 

I still have a letter to write.
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Neglect. (But not intentional)

It would seem summer and life got ahead of me. 
Let's do some catch up.

My surgery was a success. There were many tears I was frightened but my boyfriend came along and 8 weeks later fully healed. Returning to work I got a lot of "Did you lose weight?" "You look different" comments. My uniform fleece looks too big for me now.

I have scars and am glad with the choice I made. I already feel better and it hasn't even been 3 months yet. 

Watched Foster the People at Deer Lake. They did do the song that everyone knows but I love there sound so much.

Keloha was a blast. I can't wait to go again next year. Copious amounts of sushi, summer heat, swimmin in the lake, and of course I met Dan Mangan again. He was rather impressed with my fan made shirt. I already have tickets for his November show. Row 8. 

Tristan and I went away for a couple days. Nelson Island to be more specific. It's on the Sunshine coast and I refer to it as a beautiful middle of no where. The place means a lot to him and it meant so much to him that I could come and get the time off work. 

On a sadder tone My grandfather Ivo passed away. I will miss him dearly. The funeral was  a nice service and the priest even knew my grandfather on a personal level and got quite worked up when speaking about him. I will not forget and I will treasure the memories. Thank you to all my friends and family who have been there for me during this time. 

I went to another metal show this year. Iron maiden. It was on the Floor and it was all sorts of epic. I enjoy my Canadian tour shirt with a Moose on it. 

Florence + The Machine was wonderful. I am now a red head because of her. 3 shades to be specific. I still love my black hair but it's time for a change. 

My cousin has moved here. We spent the day at my work and explored the Northshore. I look forward to future hang outs now that she is living in the same city as me. 

I went Bungee Jumping and paragliding for the second time. Been having quite a few adventures this summer. 

The final one being Live at Squamish this weekend. Bard on the Beach next week and Gotye next friday.

Tuition is paid for the fall. I'm looking forward to 3rd year. 

I've signed up for a 10k race. I can run 4k non stop. I hope to be running 10 by the end of September. Here's to setting goals and trying something different.

It's raining out today but I am completely ok with that. 

Here's hoping I can get off the mountain soon. And start things differently come the fall.
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