You're in Milwaukee, off your feet

Bon Iver is on repeat today. 

I love his sound it's unfortunate that when i go on a binge of listening to him it's because I'm depressed. 

I somehow neglected writing here. Life happens. 

Uncle Joe passed away. Remembrance day was extremely hard. So much has changed in my family. Sister now lives on the island so I feel like an only child most of the time. 

Halloween came & went. 

School this semester has been up & down, but it definitely looks like I'll complete my degree by December 2014. That's only a year away. It's terrifingly wonderful. 

I would be lying if I said things were better. In some ways they are, but I still have a long way to go. There are days I wake up and I feel like I can take on the world. But today I woke up not wanting to leave bed and wanting to hide away from the world

Change doesn't happen over night as much as I wish it would. 
I really have lost weight. I beat my 10k time again, rolled my ankle during a half but it's doing fine now. and Here's hoping that I will rock future halfs in 2014. I've already signed up for two. 

I'm not really excited for Christmas . I'm actually more excited for the new year. 

I didn't end up going to Mardigras, I'll probably only make it to RoVent. But it should be a blast as it's the 40th year. 

I have a lot of growing up to do. I need to get this driving thing over with.  

Work is fine. I wish there was more of it. 

I've discovered trail running, I hope to do more of it next year and participate in some 5peaks races if I can. Racing is becoming an expensive habit but I love the friends I'm making. I'm inspired and motivated. 

I don't know what else to say, other then I'm really anxious about a lot of things and I really don't know what to do. 

I just wish I could fix things

Project Management was the biggest waste of time. Thank goodness I never have to take that class again. 

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Coming to a close

It seems like just yesterday it was my birthday. My birthday means summer to me. Thank you University for ending at the end of April and giving me 4 months of time off .

I don't like summer. Never have really. Summers have never been awesome. I've done the summer camp thing both scouting and otherwise. I recall the Summer when the strike happened at Telus . It wasn't fun for my family. 

Another summer has come and gone.

Canadian jamboree was a 6/10. I don't know if I'll go to another one

Moot was at least at 7.5/10. I will go to Iceland for sure.

I made mistakes. I did my best. and now here we are coming into the Labour Day long weekend. 

I beat my 10k time. I plan to do it 2 more times before 2013 is over. As well as at least one more half.  

I start 4th year soon. I should be more excited but I'm not. 

Sister starts college soon. I feel old because of this. 

I want to go to Mardigras Prom. But I doubt I will because I don't feel up to it and I think I'm expecting it to be more awesome then it actually will be. 

It's too early for Pumpkin Spice lattes
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Well that happened

I started something different in March. It's not my choice. I'm more or less being forced.
It's now almost the end of July and is it possible that things are going to get worse? I have choices to make which could make me feel better. But what if I'm not the same person after I make those choices? I'd rather be me and unhappy. Then happy and someone I'm not..

I can't stop crying . I cry every other day it seems. I hate most of my life. And I miss a lot more things that aren't in it. 

I'm a flake . Yet I don't feel needed by any of my friends....or anyone for that matter.

I just want to be happy and see progress. I want to see change.

I can't even be excited on the fact that I completed 2 half marathons and I will probably do 2 more if I play my cards right.

I'm not excited for school like I normally am. I'm not excited for Moot...
I can't get excited about anything...

I feel like Brian Wilson. All I wanna do is hide out from the world and lay in bed all day...but I can't do that..
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21 years, 21km

Am I really 21? It doesn't feel like it at all. 

I ran a half Marathon. 4 months of training. 4 days a week roughly. I pushed myself. I set my mind to it and I did it.

I've already signed up for another one.
I'm excited

I have a job. I work at my local running room. It's pretty swell. I'm a key holder.

I'm more active then ever. I start my journey of clean eating this week. Wish me luck. It shall be tough. It won't happen over night. But every bit of change is progress.

And I know I'm better then I was last year!

CJ is less then 2 months away. I wanna be in the best shape of my life before then. If possible.  Or at least take advantage of all this free time I have with my minimal shifts

I plan to make all the money in June. it'll be good. Bring it on sidewalk sale. 

I need to stop making excuses. I'm researching clean eating. I like what i'm reading. If I say I'm gonna do something I'll do it. Like running. I can do this.

Wish me luck as always

And don't forget to vote
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Catch up

I'm doing my best to stick with everything
This 365
Running
Working out overall

The job hunt has begun.
3 places so far. Determined to avoid going back to the mountain. Got A's on both midterms. In fact I am really rocking school at the moment

Looks like Grad won't be till 2015 but no summer classes next year. 

Counting down to April

Excited for May

Here's hoping the Universe plays in my favour in regards to work
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Less & More

Less stress, more relaxation, less instagram, more flickr, less social media, more outdoor time, more scouting,less worry, more water, less pop, more effort, less doubt, more running , less excuses, more confidence, less anxiety, more challenges, less freak outs, more celebrations, less worrying about the future.
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