Smile fades in the Summer

One month till Blink Internet. Get stoked.


Summer. It's never really been my favourite season. I don't hate it but it's not my favourite. Because summer is never as awesome or as amazing as I ever wish it to be. Things get the way people go away. It never works out.


Work is ruining my social life. As much as I want to have money to spend come the fall and such. As well as money to save for future indepedent adventures. I feel like I'm missing out on life. I don't mean to sound cliche. But for example my girls are in the midst of planning a camping trip. I don't think I've seen them for more then a few hours since summer began. So 4 days would be awesome. But I'm afraid to book it off. Regardless I'll try and see what happens.


In other news my heart is confused. All future love interests seem to reside or a moving to central canada. This is frustrating. Of course I could just keep trying to be single and figure myself out but honestly I say that all the time and it never happens. Just like people who say I'm never drinking again..and then they do.


That being said Life is good . I'm stoked for pay day Blink and the rest of August. Photos and shennanigans to come.  As well I need to meet up with Michelle and do some planning for the upcoming scouting year. I gotta plan out beavers till at least December. And then figure out fundraising for CJ WM and WAM. 


I need to start cutting people out of my life again. And I really mean it this time internet. I put up with a lot of crap that is really quite ridiculous. As well I need to hit up the island AT LEAST once before back to school.


Also did I mention I plan to go Paragliding before I go back to school? Like scouting has taught me to bring on the adventure I figure why not. 


I hope the sun stays. It's rather lovely and I want REAL summer weather. More so real summer weather in which i can go to the beach and get a tan of sorts. 


Or at least try to! Here's hoping!


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Camp Byng

I took this at Jamboree. Now I realize I've only had my camera for almost 2 years but I feel with each bit of practice I'm getting better and better. Here's hoping that my FloydFotography flickr will actually manifest into something. I'm gonna try and post more photos on here and see what comes of it

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Day after day....love turns gray.

Or so it seems. Internet I'm in an open relationship this is something completely new to me and considering my avid dating history I'm surprised I haven't done this sooner. But i am now so here we go. 


So far it's good despite that he's getting paranoid. What's to worry about? We've been doing this for months and now we're calling it that. I'm not wanting to move in or marry you. I'm simply dating for the sake of dating. Nothing more nothing less. 


Speaking of love. Last night I worked the graveyard and worked a wedding. I despise and adore weddings. I guess I should be more specific I despise how DRUNK people get at weddings. Speaking of alcohol awhile ago i had to reassure my parents that I am not alcoholic and I am simply enjoying the novelty of being 19. It will most likely last till the end of the year which by then all my besties will be 19. It'll be great. 


Work is fine enough. I really want pay day to hurryup and arrive. I'm looking at quite a large pay cheque due to the OT I built up yesterday. So that's good.


I need to pay my tuition and get myself organized for school. It's rather important. I'm excited for second year. I'm gonna rock it. I'll probably stress complain and old habits may surface but school is temporary a few years from now I'll have a lovely piece of paper that I can call mine. And that's pretty important to me.


I miss friends. I miss seeing friends on a regular basis. I hope I can find a job that will let me have a bit more of a social life. 


Here's hoping. 
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Harry Potter

So I watched the "final" Harry Potter movie last night. Now I put it qoutes because knowing the film industry I KNOW they are going to make prequels and other spin offs of Harry Potter. All to do with money of course. So I truly feel this isn't the last we've seen of Harry.


I didn't hate it. Nor did I love it. I did not enjoy the last book very much so why would I enjoy the film? I think the epilogue is cheezie and hokey and parts of the film were rushed other parts too long.


Of course if any avid Harry Potter fan (which don't get me wrong I am) reads this I'm sure they will slit my throat. But that's neither here nor there.


This week has been kinda rough internet. It's hard coming back to reality when you've been gone in what feels like paradise for so long. I'm struggling with work in the sense that I don't really like the way things are run sometimes. and I wish to find better employment but the problem is I don't know anywhere that will hire that pays as well. 


But I'm tired of commuting. I really am. I doubt at this rate I'll be driving any time soon so i need to focus on the now.


I'm in an odd place. I guess I always am. But this week and right now are especially odd.
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Pacific Jamboree 2011

Best part of my summer. I met a group from Quebec. Got sunburned danced in a field and got dusty because of it. Swam in a pool. Got a little heart broken got something I never thought would happen. Kept my Best friend as my best friend. Reconnected friendships made new ones. Enjoyed the rain. Loved the sun. Did not get enough protein. Snapped photos. Sorted myself out. Registered for classes. 


And so much more.


There are so many inside jokes and memories that I'll be holding on to for as long as I can. and just like last jamboree I'll keep making references to it. 


Thank you Scouting. Your politics and other issues make it difficult but jamborees are the reason (and other reasons) I'm still part of the largest youth organization in the world.
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