Well I guess this is growing up

One more day till what I consider the most epic part of my summer arrives. Did that make sense? In my head it did.


As of today I am the proud owner of Asus Tablet. I look forward to second year and using this for dictation instead of hauling my laptop back and forth. Pay day is this week this also pleases me. I worked back to back kinda by accident so I'm rather tired this evening. That being said work was decent but I'm now finding more and more reasons to leave this job come the spring. 


I fully intend on staying through the winter especially with a current prediction that it will be like last winter. I make more then I did last winter therefore I shall rake in some serious cash.


I am ordering textbooks this week, getting my student card and U pass and other such things. of course I'd like to do this Thursday but I don't know if I can since work has still not released a schedule yet. September is 2 days away. This is less then pleasing.


That being said summer on the mountain has been great and I'm glad I got the experience. Meeting celebs making friends with the regular hikers and hey it beats Wendy's which is where I was over a year ago. That seems so long ago now...in fact thinking back to last summer and where I was and where I am now is quite amazing. I personally feel. 


I plan to go for a run on my day off as well look into the gym at school and do something there. I have these long breaks and a day off and I need to be more productive then just my mind. That being said I imagine during exam time I'll drop 15 pounds like last time due to stress, lack of sleep, and odd eating habits.


I'm really on a rant right now I'm not sure where my mind is racing considering I had that strong coffee hours ago but ah well .


Here's hoping tomorrow will be amazing and that I can party into the wee hours I would truly love that. It would make my August and possibly my Summer.
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It's Friday?

I was out at Rolley lake for 3 days with my closest friends. We drank swam in the lake made smores the whole 9 yards. We had epic bonding moments photos were taken and memories were made.

It was nice to camp and actually have a fire since a fire ban isn't on right now. I can't remember the last time I went camping in the summer and that was the case. Seriously. I slept fairly well but it's nice to be back in civilization where there is cellphone service and flush toliets.


Blink 182 is 5 days away. Holy crap Internet. I cannot express how freaking excited I am for this.


Now I actually have to go out and get school supplies, order books, get a netbook of sorts and mentally prepare myself the wonderfulness that is 2nd year University. Yes Cap is a University. Not for very long but it is. Get over it.


2nd year draws close. It's thrilling. 
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I'm feeling this.

Yep. Had to crank out more Blink lyrics since the show is next week. Again I remind you of how freaking excited I am for this show. It's gonna be epic internet.


It rained. And I mean rain. It poured so work was absolutely dead and quiet. Which was nice but still. I'm currently in the midst of last minute planning of a camping trip with my ladies. I need it. I need to get away and spend some quality time with the besties. Plus it would be nice to have some actual days off. 


Countdown to school gets closer and closer. I managed to detox a lot of my room today but I really feel that no matter what I do it's always gonna end up being a mess. However I got rid of a lot of clothes. So now I have an excuse to shop. 


I looked at some of the Blink merch. Oh my god. Want shirt hoodie hat bracelet tank. all of it. cause I'm cool like that. 


I miss my bird guy. And I hate that.
I also miss the memories of Captain Awesome. Despite how less then awesome he ended up being.


I miss dating period.
I feel lonely. And it's pathetic but what can ya do?
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Some things never change.

I find this is very true for some people. Myself included. 


I met up with you today. I can't remember the last time I saw you. (now I can but in the moment I couldn't). You've changed but yet are still the same. I'll believe more when i see it. You've always been talk and nothing more. It's why we ended. Or at least one of the major reasons of our downfall.


Yes I am jealous. Only slightly. I think I'm allowed to be. Maybe not. I won't act on it. Don't worry. 


Enjoying the solitude now. I'm not gonna date someone who clearly loves someone else. Friends for now. Back to my main life problem the ones I wish to date wish to be friends. The ones I want as friends want to date. Such is life..

Things are coming to an end. And by things I mean summer. Soon it'll be school and seeing friends on weekend. That is if my 5 courses don't kill me. Here's hoping i can get my N before 2012 but that looks slim at this point. Ah well here's hoping I prove myself and my father wrong. 


Blasting the Blink the concert is less then 2 weeks away. I am beyond stoked internet. I also hope to work the entire September long weekend and collect major money. In fact I'm excited cause tomorrow is pay day. 


I watched the documentary film The Cove and now I fear about all the fish i eat. No I don't eat dolphin but our oceans are filled with mercury which is in fish which is the only meat I eat. I think after that I am reducing how much fish I consume. Since I'd rather not die from mercury posioning. 


Next week is camping with my high school ladies. I really need it now. 
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Drunken speeches on Sobriety..

Oh Marianas trench. I adore thee. I can't wait for your new album! 


I went out on the town last night. Partied a little hard but sadly I really wasn't in a super party hard mood. I tried to be...but wasn't. I'll blame the fact that you're leaving and I will probably never see you again unless I actually manage to save enough money to see you and if you come back to Vancouver next summer.


My tuition has been payed. I remain debt free even with my credit card. Go me. I'm trying to organize my life but I seem to lack the motivation to get started.


I'm rather blue internet. All because of a boy. It gets worse with my commute to work because I keep finding myself thinking about my life and what needs to change. Mostly people in it. People who don't treat me as I treat them. 


Problem is how do you cut people out of your life when we live in a world of facebook? I don't think I can be as brutally honest as I want to be. Mostly because I'm trying to avoid conflict. 


Driving is going well internet. I'm slowly but surely getting there.  As well as I apparently look thinner whilst I still don't see results. I am going to TRY and do the grind after work tomorrow. It's rather dependent on how crowded it is. 


I need it to be the end of August ....I need Blink 182 to hurry up and arrive. I want my work schedule. I just need things to happen..and things to change
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But I don't get out much these days.

Dan Mangan? You continue to rule. I also have tickets to your show in Van and might go to your Victoria show. Seriously. Can't wait for your new album.


So what's been happening. Work. Lots of it. I worked a stat holiday and made time and half. I am rather excited for my next pay cheque. 


Seeing this amazing guy. I do mean amazing. The only downside is it will only be temporary. I know this and it will hurt when he leaves until then I shall enjoy the remainder of summer and other hangouts. 


Tuition is going to be paid this week as well I plan to focus more on my diet. I had a break down with my self esteem/image in regards to my excersize and lack of results. I told my mother too much and she was completely unaware of how I really felt about my image. She really thinks I should talk to someone that isn't her. But I truly feel that talking about this will change nothing. It has to come from me. The change. And it won't come till I see results. I will finish working out with my trainer and if nothing comes of it. I will be utterly frustrated. My mother says she can see a difference but I'm seeing it in all the wrong places. (still don't have an ass) 


So for now I'm going to try and shift my focus on other things.


Driving. it's getting there here's hoping by the new year (or before I'm 20 ) i can obtain my N. That would be wonderful. 


I'm always in a weird place internet. I still feel like something is missing from my life. So I'm going to try and take more photos and hope that solves it. 


Trying to score tickets to Mamma mia! Here's hoping I can!
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