2012

New years did not start well. Ripped stockings confusing emotions and then realization of death made for a crying Cheezie. I did not wish to be the drunk girl at the party that everyone gets annoyed by.


Thus why I left.


I worked the next day with sore eyes and cried more before my shift. I lost 2 beavers and there mother to car accident. It's senseless and unfair. I still can't sleep well and I found this out almost 2 weeks ago now...


But it's ok internet. Grief is something we all struggle with and death is but a part of life. In fact today marks 3 years since my Aunty Nelly passed away. I will never forget Uncle John's Eulogy


"Today is the only certainty we have"


With this statement in mind I've made a list of 20 things I will do this year. This being because I am turning 20. I have also made 4 major goals like I did last year

1. Find closer work
2. Form a daily routine with gym, work, school, scouting and stick to it
3. Try and test for my liscence at LEAST once. 
4. Duke Trip. Plan it and do it this summer.

The list of 20 involves various goals which I am still tweaking. I enjoy lists. and making them. It's good structure.


Today was a long day on the mountain. I'm debating going out but cold like things are making me question it. 


I had a lovely quiet Christmas. Great Aunt chose to skip Christmas with us which is lame but fine I guess. I got some lovely gifts had some delicious dinner and it was just nice to be home . 


2012 has a lot in store for me. 2011 overall was interesting. I grew up a lot. Got a better job, got some awards, turned 19, scars on my leg, floor concerts, PJ 2011, various boys causing me grief, completion of 1st year and switching into a BCS. (bachelor of communication studies)


Here's to achieving it all internet. 
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To be Thankful (But to Change)

I am thankful internet. I am thankful for the roof over my head, my parents who give me freedom, a sister who usually loves me as well a job that provides me with income as well my funded education


But things have to change.


I'm not just talking about the fact that I should shed pounds or should stop and enjoy the small things in life. I'm talking about the fact that there are things I wish to accomplish or even plan and it's not happening.


Starting now things will change. I shall use blogging and other various outlets to keep track of these changes. 


It stuns me. It really does. How much changes in a year. or doesn't change. I made the right choice. Even if it does keep me up at night. 


The first being booking my N test and getting my gym membership I MUST get these done this week. 


Now back to reality


I worked all weekend and had a lovely Paterson Thanksgiving. My baby cousins are growing so fast and are so adorable. I'm hoping to see them more before the year is out. And I am getting even MORE excited for my cousins Wedding in December. Should be gt's for sure.


This week is midterm prep, Young the Giant, work and then Apple Day with more studying. If I can survive midterms my reward is Skrillex.


Score.
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